Thrashed & Trashed

 

Passed the initial steps
Passed all the tests
Talked in interviews
Provided them clues that…

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I fit well
They said so
The tests proved so
Just waiting for the “go”…

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Ten hours of waiting
They let me wait so
For I was sure to go
After that last processing…

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The last person left
I was the only one there
Like I said, I was sure to go
Just waiting for the final “go”…

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Roleplaying here
Fake confidence appear
I could swear
I did my best there…

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Compliments and praises
Commendations and respects
It’s clear I have what it takes
There were no mistakes…

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He tilted his head in doubt
Like surveying a specimen
He remarked out of his gut
That I wasn’t short of acumen…

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It was something else:
Lack of strength…
Lack of confidence…
Lack of stability…

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He said I needed 30 days
A month to get my “strong” on
He thought I wasn’t ready
‘coz my eyes are “red and teary”…

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Inside I was fighting
To counter or accede?
If I defend myself,
He will surely deny me…

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Cool and calm, I had to be
Appear mature and collected
Perhaps he’ll be interested
And finally hire me…

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Others beneath him wondered
Why such a blunder
Truly? Will he let me go?
After I proved myself so?

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In the end,
Man played God.
Certain of his judgment,
Didn’t bend.

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Certain I will go back
To claim that rightful place
Once gained what I lack,
He shall let me sign the deal…

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What if I don’t go back
To claim my rightful place?
What will happen then,
To such similar case?

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Same time and place
Same stance and demeanor
Same long hours to wait
For a decision uncertain…

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I will always have these eyes
These tired, red & teary eyes
The ones which induced you
To play God, Jehovah, or whatever Pazuzu

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Will you think me weak again?
Say again that I’m not strong?
Will you turn me down once again?
Just because you get me wrong?

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